The house is on the market and the prospective buyers are
walking through, so far I have had a good response the agent tells me, I have been complimented on my landscape designs and the general property and location, there are a few concerns about having water front when it comes to raining and potential flooding and insurance but most seemed serious. Now the house is on the market I have slowed down a little and stated to pack the house up, I even managed to find some time to procrastinate and paint.
Work is as normal, I am not overly happy with this job, although it is a good company and has many advantages, I came to the realisation a while ago that the management like to micro manage the staff and
this is counter-productive in many ways, I personally feel like a 1st year apprentice with 30+ years’ experience. Also the company and some of the management look for any reason to blame my team and avoid taking responsibility for their problems. There is not much to inspire someone to stay, since I have been here 6 experienced tradesmen have moved on, some to other better departments where they feel there experience is appreciated and the others out the door to other companies.
I am back at work with a small sense of I will not be there for long and that I was there for a reason. OK. If that is true what is or are the reason/s?
I have been painting for a few weeks and put many feelings and experiences onto canvas in an abstract fashion, a few were 3 dimensional, part sculpture and painting and one had some electronics added to power illuminated eyes. I think my painting is helping me feel better. I seem to have managed a few interesting paintings, not quite what I envisioned but sort of more intriguing and even more accurate than planned. 2 paintings in particular have actually scared a few people. I guess this means I have managed to get some of my emotions (demons) into them.
"Well Disguised" Number 3 in the series. Somethings are not what they seem. Old proverb: 'One who is clothed in good deeds is well disguised'
I still have little faith left in myself and my beliefs. This is sad because a year ago I would have said that it was all working for me, now I feel like maybe I had mislead people I cared for by my beliefs even though a few say I helped change their lives for the better. I hope I am just going through one of the universes tests and I do hope I pass it. Is any of this worth it? I am not sure but I know I cannot live how I have been as I do not want to exist doing what I am good at without loving it or at the least enjoying it, I want to do what I love.
The story of David (Storm) Allison, a man that has decided to follow the dream he has had for 40 years.
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