I am back at work with a small sense of I will not be there for long and that I was there for a reason. OK. If that is true what is or are the reason/s?
I have been painting for a few weeks and put many feelings and experiences onto canvas in an abstract fashion, a few were 3 dimensional, part sculpture and painting and one had some electronics added to power illuminated eyes. I think my painting is helping me feel better. I seem to have managed a few interesting paintings, not quite what I envisioned but sort of more intriguing and even more accurate than planned. 2 paintings in particular have actually scared a few people. I guess this means I have managed to get some of my emotions (demons) into them.
"Well Disguised" Number 3 in the series. Somethings are not what they seem. Old proverb: 'One who is clothed in good deeds is well disguised'
I still have little faith left in myself and my beliefs. This is sad because a year ago I would have said that it was all working for me, now I feel like maybe I had mislead people I cared for by my beliefs even though a few say I helped change their lives for the better. I hope I am just going through one of the universes tests and I do hope I pass it. Is any of this worth it? I am not sure but I know I cannot live how I have been as I do not want to exist doing what I am good at without loving it or at the least enjoying it, I want to do what I love.
The story of David (Storm) Allison, a man that has decided to follow the dream he has had for 40 years.
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